I know this book has been out for a while but I am just now getting around to reading. I am about 10 pages in and already, it has affected me profoundly. I can't imagine what is in store for my crowded little mind as I trudge through it a few pages at a time. I'm not a slow reader, I just don't have a lot of leisure time. Now that I have this site online, I have even less.

Everybody keeps messaging me and commenting to each other about what a great idea. It's not some original idea though. There are social networking sites all over the Internet, many with millions of members.

I do think I filled a need by making this a focussed community. A wise saying I heard goes something like this: "Your purpose in life is where your talent(s) meet the needs of the world." Who knows...?

I think most all members of this community live that day to day. You are some of the most talented people in the world.

How does this relate to Blue Like Jazz? I am starting to realize that my past (and present) selfishness greatly affects all those around me. Many times, over the years, I have felt I was doing great work for grand purposes. Maybe that was a little true, sometimes it was really true and some grand things happened. But at the end of the day, what concerned me most was making a name for myself. That is a very hard temptation to avoid in our business. Most of the time it was an unconscious act, or a natural decision, never representing itself as a moral failure.

Then today, just when I was caught up in this supposedly self-less en devour, I let down an old friend. I could brush it off as being under pressure to make NMP cool, or having a bad memory, but it does not cover the fact that I could not put my agenda in second place.

So, I will make it up to my friend, ask forgiveness, get forgiveness, and all those things we do to remove guilt.

All I can do tomorrow is ask for wisdom to know when my name starts wanting to be name above all names.